What a STRUGGLING TRIP!
Apr 2, 2019
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oh my gosh you guys I am back home in
the comfort of my home I uh I went to
Walmart with the kids I I've logged
while I was heading over there but the
conversation was kind of about today's
message earlier and you know I don't
feel the need to continue to talk about
it because you know that's not what I'm
about
so back to positive a day that's what
we're about
um anyways I wanted to show you guys a
what to my newest keychain slash
magnetics whatever anybody wants them
for because I haven't placed them into
keychains yet so I can do it however you
want but I made this one if you can see
him hold on see I'm a shy yeah I might
have to shut my lights off for a minute
oops so I got one is his friend's
ladybug monkey off the lights on it good
or not this one just says fabulous
fabulous a fob coffee cup
bumblebee bumblebee that's been so key
oh it's a kitty cat it says cute and you
can't see it very well on camera but it
literally looks like it's coming through
a cloud let me see if I can I don't know
if I will Sh
oops okay hold on why is this blue a
mess
anyways it literally looks like it's
coming through a cloud and then this one
I showed you guys yesterday of the ring
my faves so I've got some to get into
either keychains or magnets how whatever
their end up being ordered into you guys
this has become an obsession like
seriously an obsession I got some newest
drop stickers are those fun I'm so
excited
and they've got like I don't know if you
can see but a donut and this one's a
happy face let's see
they're the emojis right yeah emojis for
the longest time you know I could not
even say that word I didn't even know
what it was I didn't know what they were
my kids actually taught me the word
anyways
that's what they look like how fun are
those I am like geeking all over these
but yeah so I got those ones and then I
got so excited for these ones peanuts
some of these are a little bit big so I
don't know if they're gonna fit I may
have to UM get like a bigger thing I
don't know we'll have to see what I can
come up with and then last but not least
of my stickers I got these ones so fun
and to put those in keychains I was
gonna be so show much fun all the way
down to who is that oh I think it's
Bambi and Dumbo I made one earlier of
Dumbo but it was a charm
sometimes the sticker ones come out a
little bit better than the Charmed Ones
but then sometimes the charm ones come
out way better so it just you never
no until you drop them and see which
ones come out better but I feel so
adorable
it was Bambi Dumbo and Tinkerbell and
then Buzz and Woody how fun Elsa on a
pooh picolit Tigger
Daisy Donald how much fun like these are
going to be a blast so anyways I got
those and then what else did I get from
Walley world I picked up this I am
really excited I got this it's just a a
wristlet but it's so nice and big inside
like literally it will fit everything
that I need for my purse and sometimes
it's nice just to have something like
this so you don't have to carry around a
huge old person stuff and I I like stuff
like this so and look at the colors
they're like so pretty yes I'm oh yes
Esther wants to show her makeups so she
got her makeups purse it lights up and
then when you open it of course she had
mama you know give her some extra
makeups it came with some eyeshadow it
came with a cell phone and what else did
it come open and it came with this is
the type of lipstick I need it's a
cotton how fun reminds me of when I was
little they have was it suckers or
something like that that was like these
and I remember that so yes she got her
own little thing of
yes there's that I picked up two packs
of these they're just the equate so
Walmart brand flushable White's I like
to get these because with the babies
still you know like they're still
learning the toll toilet they I mean
they're they do excellent but we still
clean them freshen them up every single
time they use the restroom so we don't
flush these but they're cheaper to do it
this way so I went ahead and I also
picked up they just came out with I
haven't seen these until just today so
I'm assuming they are new they're it's a
4x tear and sky
it was 1488 a 4x is a 28 30
it's a TS cardigan it's just an open
cardigan with like kind of like 3/4
quarter length sleeve it's got really
pretty stuff down here on the bottom
reason I bought this I don't have a
white cardigan but I've got some of my
shirts that I need a white cardigan for
I think it would be more comfortable so
I find a place to put these stickers so
they don't go flying and then I picked
up one more thing I seen as I was
getting ready to walk out of the
clothing section which not that I need
more clothing but I am taking pair the
Mickey pair pants back so basically it's
a crossover of price so I'd only
initially basically bought the one pair
are the one cardigan because I'm taking
this one are the pants back
this is just a tear in sky 4x 1497 knit
dress so it's a dress however miss Amy
over here will not wear it as a dress
it's a very cute though it's got a very
cute
a vaccine back here which mine will be
covered with my hijab because of course
I'm not gonna wear it with it open but
it's still very cute still think it's
you know I shall shrink it very cute
they had blue navy blue and this color
anyways it's like a dark gray 3/4
quarter length sleeve it is very pretty
I again would never wear it as a dress
but it is a long dress according to them
it's got pockets the part that I love
the most is pockets except see those
pockets are so low I mean if you were to
put that on and expect that to be a
pocket oh girl you'd be wearing your
cell phone on your kneecap um anyway so
I mean it's from top to bottom it's that
long so for me it's gonna be a I'm gonna
love it as a shirt though I can wear it
with my leggings that's what I'm excited
about so yeah that's what we got from
Wally March and then Omar got a toy set
and then I got Maya a candy bar because
that's what I thought that he would like
which that's what he wanted so worked
out anyways um but yeah so that was
pretty much our afternoon we didn't
really do much I came home I well after
I got out of Walmart during the time I
was in whoa hold on let me backtrack a
little bit during the time I was at
Walmart I have this since like I was
going to pass out literally pass out I
got really hot it was I was like perf
Yusuf Lee just pouring sweat
nothing was hurting like my back wasn't
hurting my legs were hurting but I just
got and I'm still burning up from it
like I don't know what happened but I do
know that at one point during the store
Omar started getting really antsy and
really like aggravated so I don't know
if he just kind of you know
tensed me too much I don't know um
especially cuz I was by myself so by the
time I got to the register I was just
like oh my god and then mr. Omar mr.
helper
he was chucking everything out of the
car as I was trying to scan it he was
throwing stuff out of the car so then I
was having to go and chase it and pick
it up and I was like oh my god just kept
me out of the store get me out of this
store
so by the time I got to the car I was
just like throwing everything in the car
and like let's just go but I had to sit
there for a minute because I was just I
wasn't doing good for a minute I really
wasn't
I was just it was a it was a rough
moment which you know that's just it is
I never have said that I don't struggle
because I still get on that struggle bus
real fast
what baby okay I will have daddy make
che in just a minute okay she cut her
finger somehow it's not deep or anything
it's just like more like a scratch but
oh my goodness we have heard about this
for the last four hours
we got an owie on her finger look you
guys up move you around for a minute
okay um so anyways yeah it was um
definitely a day that I would have loved
to have had the mobility scooter but you
know what I am proud to say that I did
not get in it I walked the whole store
which I ended up being in the store for
two hours so I walked around the store
for two hours just you know trying to
get everything that I needed just the
kids wanted toys which that inner-self
we got stuck in the toy section for a
good probably thirty minutes going in
circles trying to find something for
them but it was fun it was fun it's just
you know I'm still getting used to
managing taking the kids by myself at
times when Ali's busy and he doesn't
have time you know I I have to get used
to it and it wasn't that I wasn't used
to it I think I just my body started to
go into a panic because Omar was
misbehaving and I get very anxious when
I'm in public and the kids start acting
up and I've got two strangers around and
I've got to turn my back from one spot
to the other so I'm afraid like someone
can work my kid out of a car while I'm
trying to take care of another kid and
you know that type of a thing but we
made it home all in one piece and that's
all that matters but it was good so
anyways let's do our I need this today I
really do I think today I just I've I
just ever since I came home from Walmart
I've had the really bad headache I'm
still feeling really warm all he touched
me and he was like wow you are really
hot to the touch
I took my blood pressure actually while
I was at Walmart which was I've never
done that but I was at the in the
pharmacy section I thought I'm just
really not feeling good it was 166 over
97 so I don't know and my blood pressure
monitor went to craps again I just
bought a brand new one and the stupid
thing died out on me so yeah not a very
happy camper right now because these
things are like sixty something dollars
and here this is a second one in less
than a year that we've had to buy so I
don't know what is going on but let me
tell you I'm not happy about this right
now because there's no reason that my
blood pressure monitor is not working
but if Walmart's is on track what
okay okay okay daddy is getting dinner
done so it's I'm I'm very much assure
that as soon as dinner's done we're
gonna eat okay
can you shut the door with for Mama um I
wonder if he's just not feeling good he
has been crying all day long I mean hmm
me and Willie both looked at each other
and we were like oh my god this is the
way that today is gonna go we're just
gonna be in for a long day until bedtime
anyways let's get to our reading because
I need my reading today I really need my
book T we're on March 2nd currently
putting my dreams at the top of my
self-care list because if I want new
results I must put forth some new
efforts effort sure let's read that
again
currently putting my dreams at the top
of my self-care list because if I want
new results I must put forth some new
effort wow that's that's Wow like
depending on what you consider self-care
to me self-care to me is taking time for
yourself doing good things for yourself
like getting your nails done or your
hair done or buying yourself makeup
self-care could be taking a time out for
yourself putting your health first
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putting your businesses first those are
all things that are to me self-care and
I think that I little by little this
last year have really learned how to
take my dreams of what I want to see
happen in my life and putting them at
the top of my list because all the time
before I used to say well I want to do
this and I want to do that and well I
think I could do this and I think I
could do that but what I ever do
would I ever fulfilling Lee do it no
because I always found a reason that
something was more important but as the
last few months have gone by I'm really
learning that you know for instance the
dream one of my dreams was I really need
one day a week that's just for me
for me to get up and go not take the
kids not have my phone going on million
miles a minute not talk to anybody but
just spend quality time within myself
and that was a dream because I never
really spoke of those things to Olli and
I know but I always desired that but I
always felt guilty to say that I wanted
that or that I needed that and once I
voiced it and I finally said no this is
something I need to have because it's
not just a dream but this is something
that I need and I put it at the top of
my list of self-care things now that I
receive that one day a week it's so
refreshing to me and now it's become
more of a of a regular thing where you
know I do get my day off and through the
week but also there are moments where I
say hey you know what I'm gonna go off
to you know XYZ and I'll be back in a
little bit I you know as long as he
doesn't have plans with his job then I
can go and do something and I don't feel
guilty leaving the kids I don't feel
guilty leaving him I don't feel guilty
and vice versa he's the exact same way
like we both need time for ourselves and
taking those dreams of what we want to
see happen and making them happen has
been such a big boost for both of us in
our growing of accepting that self-care
is very important but making those
dreams become part of our self-care that
is what's the biggest thing and watching
those things go into action is so
important but just knowing that you know
like the reading said currently putting
my dreams at the top of my self-care
list so I know that you know one thing
that I really really
wanted as I wanted my nails done I
wanted to start getting my nails done
it's something that I used to love to do
but I stopped getting it done because
when I couldn't find time to do it and
to you know it was just something that
wasn't so important to the family but it
was important to me so I took that dream
of getting my nails done and said hey I
want to put this into something I'll do
it on my day but putting those things in
my self-care list of my top things and
making those things happen you know
going to getting my nails done was
important to me it was something that I
enjoy so why would I why would I not
respect that and say hey this is
something that I want and that's the
same with ollie all he likes to smoke a
cigar and those are things that he
enjoys to go and do by himself on his
own away from the kids away from me
because I and he does it outside of our
home but it's something that he enjoys
and that's something that may not be
considered self-care but it's a
self-care thing that he likes to do for
himself and so we are learning to
respect our self-care dreams and make
them into reality so that we start
meeting our needs of our wants that we
want as well but in realistic levels
because of course you know you have to I
mean I could sit there and be like well
I want $500 to spend a month on clothes
and that's not a reality that's not
realistic for our family but being
realistic and being honorable to my
self-care dreams is always very
important and it's important for you
guys to to pick things that are
realistic that you can keep - but adding
those to your self-care list and being
like okay you know what that's true I do
need to do something nice for myself and
I need to make these dreams that I have
a real a realistic thing because reality
in reality we all deserve those things
to become true so anywho
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I'm gonna close because we're getting
ready for dinner all he forgot cheese so
now he has to go back to the store my
poor husband
especially in this nasty weather but
he'll do anything I tell ya not that I
asked him to but it's okay he wants jeez
so anyways I hope you guys are having a
wonderful wonderful wonderful Tuesday I
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here soon take care
sweet dreams and I'll see you later
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